open letter to several people from the past, none of whom prolly are on LJ or read MY LJ, even so

[smibbo]

Hey you, yeah YOU. Remember me?

Guess what? I'm over it.

Yeah, I realized just the other day something really important.

I don't like you.

I don't like you and there's nothing wrong with that. I am not required to like every single person I come across. I do not have to feel guilty anymore just because I find you and things about you, to be distasteful.

I'm not saying anything generalized about you like "you suck" or "you shouldn't be"

Just, I don't like you.

Maybe I thought I did, or I thought I should or maybe, just maybe I gave you a chance. But somewhere along the way, you blew it. You showed yourself to be someone else, not what I expected and most definitely not what I like. You ended up being one of those strange people who appear on the surface to be everything I like in a person but actually, deep down? You aren't. You're probably everything someone else likes in a person or maybe you're a big fake, I don't know and I don't care anymore.

For whatever reason, I learned enough about you to realize, I don't like you. And I'm fine with that now. Cuz it's not a requirement that I like everyone who ever crosses my path. Some people just aren't going to be all hearts and flowers for me.

Maybe you don't like me? That's fine. I'm certainly not for everyone. There's nothing in the book of life that says I have to be either. I've got people who do like me, people who put up with me and probably plenty of people who wish I'd just disappear. I like to think there's no people who wish me ill but of course I know better. I'm just glad those people aren't seriously involved in my life.

Most importantly, there is no longer any reason to keep trying to like you. No reason to pretend I will like you in the future. No reason to feel as if there's something wrong with me simply because I don't approve of you or what you do. I can seperate myself from all that is you and be just fine with that because the people who care about me don't expect me to like everyone any more than I expect them to like everyone either.

So, if you still have problems with the fact that I don't like you...

Too bad.

Comments

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

I really wish my parents had taught me when I was young that no matter what I did, some people were just not going to like me, and that was okay, because there would also be some people I just wouldn't like no matter what.

[not-hothead-yet.livejournal.com]

I think that's an impossible lesson to give. My father tried to teach me that but it was too ego-shattering for a kid to take in. Besides, my father himself has difficulty accepting not being liked by everyone. Hell my parents have difficulty with anything being "unfair"