medical stuff is annoying but weirdly fascinating

I will admit, I am fascinated with illness, body responses, medications and all manner of medical health stuff. The problem is 1) i can't exactly get all excited about someone elses illness and parse it all out cuz it kind of comes off the wrong way 2) if I get fascinated with my own illness, it makes me look like a whiner, a perennial victim or a hypochondriac. None of which I am. illness, Immune response and drug action (and interaction) just clicks my "neato!" and "but why...?" buttons. If you tell me about an illness I'll probably look it up. If you tell me about an experience with an illness and the treatment, I'm sure to be looking up related things and trying oh-so-casually to ask you penetrating questions about it without seeming morbid or callous.

And yes, I can be wracked with illness and/or pain and still be utterly fascinated with how its playing out. Ask me about almost any severe illness I've had and I'm sure I can detail the experience down to the minute.

THat's me.

So anyway.
This goddamned herpes flare-up is pissing me off. I'm up to one horse pill every six hours. Which was the "go home" dose from my last meningitis stint. And I STILL feel it in my spine near the end of each six hours. FUCK its pissing me off. LEEMEE ALONE
I need to talk to my dr about getting a bigger dose or higher frequency scrip because I'm going to run out and not be able to get insurance ot cover it. Not only which, I've still needed pain meds a coupel of times to get through the day.

This is redonkuluss. Capiche?