The many posts I could have made...

I was going to use my quickcam to make some more recent pics of me... but I couldn't get the program loaded and abandoned that idea.

I was going to write about how I'm fascinated yet repulsed by ego-centric people who pretend to be self-concious in order to get more attention... but I realized that it really wasn't that important to me and abandoned that idea.

I was going to write a cute story about something one of my sons said... but I can't remember exactly what he said, just that it made me laugh so I abandoned that idea.

I was going to write about my nervousness upon going to an interview.... but I'm not really nervous so I abandoned that idea.

I was going to write about my day... but nothing happened so I abandoned that idea.

I was going to write about how I'm feeling better... but I can't quite put it into words so I abandoned that idea.

What I do want to say is something tied to all of those post ideas:

Thank you everyone who reads this and comments and calls me.

Thank you for NOT buying into my self-pitying times and immediately patting me on the back and making me feel like a lost little puppy. The lack of "poor cass" sentiments always shores me up better and faster than any ludicrous patronizing sympathy. Everyone knows I will make it through anything eventually and the confidence you all display in me is more gratifying than any words of sympathy could ever be. Sometimes it is nice to hear soothing words, but I'd rather get angry, get kicked and get my butt up to get things done!

Thank you for being sincere in your compliments and honest in your criticisms. I may not appreciate it at the time - I still have pride and egotism - but I always listen and take advice, even if it is silently. Knowing that I can count on my friends to not cloud the issues, or cast rose-hues on problems raises my confidence level whenever there are words of wisdom for me to mull over.

Thank you for knowing when to come to my side, and when to leave me alone. Thank you for never giving hollow words to my musings. Thank you for commenting thoughtfully rather than always throwing out whatever sounds good. I always know I can read what has been commented for me and take it seriously. I have so much trust in my LJ friends because you've never tried to shut me up, lead me astray or fill me with false pride. There is so much comfort in knowing that one's friends are FOR REAL.

Never be afraid to tell me what you really think. Even those people who no longer wish to associate with me know that I like it served up straight and honest. If you can withstand the storm of immediate reaction, you will be rewarded with sincere effort of understanding.

For those who have chosen to disassociate from me, I must still thank you for allowing me the chance to know you enough to realize that not all friendships survive every disagreement. I am not sorry for the way things always happened, even though I do miss you and your company. There are some differences that just can't be worked through and letting go is a lesson I'm still struggling with. Thank you for helping me with that at least.

To all my LJ friends who are still here; thank you for all you are to me.

In case you didn't notice...

I'm back UP again.

Yay for me!