- I play Star Wars Galaxies when I ought to be doing something productive or educational - I get on LJ when I ought to be doing something productive or educational - I spend money on things to cheer me up when I ought to be saving it so I can pay all my bills on time for a change. - all I can think about with pleasure is diversionary things
These are all symptomatic of the same things. In general, due to the overwhelming problems you face in real life, your mind is subconsciously concerning itself with diversions that keep you from facing the real problems. The problems in and of themselves are ultimately painful to deal with. They involve money, the fact that you aren't making enough of it, that you have kids to worry about, that you have issues with Bath - and that they are all here AT ONCE. The only possible way to deal with such problems is to approach them without emotion and with complete logic - never mind what you want, what is it that is necessary. You hate dealing with necessity and treating things in a cold objective manner. Thus, you prefer amusement to the problem, etc, etc. Perfectly normal human reaction.
- I feel guilty about everything I do wrong and everything I don't do at all
Since you are an intelligent human with a conscience, this results from your actions in the paragraph above. You blame yourself for not doing what you need to do, and instead paying attention to what you want. Superego blasting you for paying attention to the id, if you want to get Freudian.
- I don't want to stay "hooked up" with Baphomet, but I don't want to split up either
I felt the same way about Heather. Heather, OTOH, was a living psychotic monster. Baph is not. Being in love with Heather, I was loath to leave her, even though it was best for me. To be honest, I cannot and will not offer advice on this; I don't know what myriad ways you and Baph interact and therefore have no information to base anything on. Relationships are always tough decisions, though.
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Date: 2003-07-08 12:35 pm (UTC)- I get on LJ when I ought to be doing something productive or educational
- I spend money on things to cheer me up when I ought to be saving it so I can pay all my bills on time for a change.
- all I can think about with pleasure is diversionary things
These are all symptomatic of the same things.
In general, due to the overwhelming problems you face in real life, your mind is subconsciously concerning itself with diversions that keep you from facing the real problems.
The problems in and of themselves are ultimately painful to deal with. They involve money, the fact that you aren't making enough of it, that you have kids to worry about, that you have issues with Bath - and that they are all here AT ONCE.
The only possible way to deal with such problems is to approach them without emotion and with complete logic - never mind what you want, what is it that is necessary.
You hate dealing with necessity and treating things in a cold objective manner.
Thus, you prefer amusement to the problem, etc, etc.
Perfectly normal human reaction.
- I feel guilty about everything I do wrong and everything I don't do at all
Since you are an intelligent human with a conscience, this results from your actions in the paragraph above.
You blame yourself for not doing what you need to do, and instead paying attention to what you want.
Superego blasting you for paying attention to the id, if you want to get Freudian.
- I don't want to stay "hooked up" with Baphomet, but I don't want to split up either
I felt the same way about Heather.
Heather, OTOH, was a living psychotic monster. Baph is not.
Being in love with Heather, I was loath to leave her, even though it was best for me.
To be honest, I cannot and will not offer advice on this; I don't know what myriad ways you and Baph interact and therefore have no information to base anything on.
Relationships are always tough decisions, though.
- I need to go to the doctor but I am avoiding it
What are you afraid the doctor will tell you?