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[smibbo]

The side of me that can't live without you
creates a roaring in my head
I want to rip it out of me
tear it up and fill my heart with ice
blood-stained shards that protect me
from what you do

The side of me that can't believe in you
begins keening in my mind
I want to slice it off of me
bury it deep and soak my wounds with tears
blood-soaked tears that protect me
from what you started

The side of me that wants you
hounds me into crouching fear
I wish I could shut it up
wrap it up in black crinoline and lace
painful lace that buffers me
from what I feel

The side of me that hates you
thrusts a spear into my pride
I wish I could pacify it
wrap it up in white gauze and tape
secure tape that holds me fast
from what bleeds out of me because of you

the side of me that screams at me, threatens me, frightens me and mesmerizes me
is the side that shores me up
when I think I've lost my dignity
A tall sinewy demon with talons of consequence
he whispers names in my ear
whenever my angel holds my hand

the side of me that begs me, pleads with me, delights me and coaxes me
is the side that lets me fall
when I think I've found my sanity
A small besmudged pixie with wings of freedom
she whispers stories in my ear
whenever my angel lets me go

warring factions within a nation
while everyone sit aside
waiting for the outcome
who gets smaller today?
who gets quieter today?
I know who I love
but I know who I trust

and why can't they just get along?