Tapping in the new year
Jan. 1st, 2005 04:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
smibboWhat I Did To Celebrate The New Year
I played World of Warcraft. When midnight hit, Baph came over and kissed me softly.
I was not disappointed or anything about staying at home. I have a long-standing tradition of staying at home for New Year's celebrations. Mostly it's self-preservation. The celebrations are usually BIG and SCARY and EXPENSIVE.
The two times I remember doing anything special for New Years were
1) going to work (I worked at a strip club were every night was party night) and kissing my beloved in the bathroom. It was a nervous but sweet kiss and I miss having kisses like that.
2) going to a small party at The Lady's house (when she still lived with her dad) and playing board games and demon while everyone else got plastered.
This year I barely noticed it was a "special" time. Well, to me, it isn't all that special. No offense to anyone else who whooped it up because that's just MY take on it. I can party, get drunk or whoop it up whenever I want - I'm an adult and we adults can do that. I don't NEED a special day designated to get shnockered and act like I don't know what I'm doing.
The New Year is a symbolic thing, but for me, it shouldn't be ONE day, it should be a phase. I like the idea of having a definite date for moving into a new cycle of anything, but I don't like that the DAY has become a symbol of "insta-change" expectations. Change is a gradual thing that happens because the universe is big and complex, not because someone bangs a gong and says "DO OVER!"
So, my New Year's Day is not January 1. It's kind of MidWinter "whenever-christmas-madness-ends" through EarlySpring "whenever-things-seem-normal-again".
Yes, I've got new things I'd like to try, ideas to ponder and dreams to dust off and reexamine. I choose to do that over a period of time... to make any concious changes in my life REAL changes. Anything I believe I can do overnight, won't happen - this I know. So I don't make any decisions on-the-spot like that. My New Year's celebrations are actually realizations and epiphanies that I bring upon myself as a result of deliberate mental and spiritual prodding. My New Year's begins when I say "Time for a change" and my Old Year ends when I say "I think I've got that about right!"
Happy New Year.
I played World of Warcraft. When midnight hit, Baph came over and kissed me softly.
I was not disappointed or anything about staying at home. I have a long-standing tradition of staying at home for New Year's celebrations. Mostly it's self-preservation. The celebrations are usually BIG and SCARY and EXPENSIVE.
The two times I remember doing anything special for New Years were
1) going to work (I worked at a strip club were every night was party night) and kissing my beloved in the bathroom. It was a nervous but sweet kiss and I miss having kisses like that.
2) going to a small party at The Lady's house (when she still lived with her dad) and playing board games and demon while everyone else got plastered.
This year I barely noticed it was a "special" time. Well, to me, it isn't all that special. No offense to anyone else who whooped it up because that's just MY take on it. I can party, get drunk or whoop it up whenever I want - I'm an adult and we adults can do that. I don't NEED a special day designated to get shnockered and act like I don't know what I'm doing.
The New Year is a symbolic thing, but for me, it shouldn't be ONE day, it should be a phase. I like the idea of having a definite date for moving into a new cycle of anything, but I don't like that the DAY has become a symbol of "insta-change" expectations. Change is a gradual thing that happens because the universe is big and complex, not because someone bangs a gong and says "DO OVER!"
So, my New Year's Day is not January 1. It's kind of MidWinter "whenever-christmas-madness-ends" through EarlySpring "whenever-things-seem-normal-again".
Yes, I've got new things I'd like to try, ideas to ponder and dreams to dust off and reexamine. I choose to do that over a period of time... to make any concious changes in my life REAL changes. Anything I believe I can do overnight, won't happen - this I know. So I don't make any decisions on-the-spot like that. My New Year's celebrations are actually realizations and epiphanies that I bring upon myself as a result of deliberate mental and spiritual prodding. My New Year's begins when I say "Time for a change" and my Old Year ends when I say "I think I've got that about right!"
Happy New Year.
